Early on in a relationship with my first love, he got himself an analogue camera and kind of experimented with everything he knew about me. It was always him behind the camera, and I was so used to being in front of his lens for a long time that I was quite confused, lost even after we separated. Things were blurry, I was young and didn’t have much faith in myself to create alone, although photography has struck me ever since.
It took me years to figure out that I too, can continue the journey by myself. My shyness (or more accurately, my loneliness) guided me to play with the camera alone at first, I wasn’t confident enough to ask anyone to be my model, and so I just cling to that game until I realised “ah, this is fun, might as well give it a try with different surroundings, landscapes, people…”