Yes. Increasingly, that’s the place I want anything I create to come from, speaking to the spirit in others from the spirit in me. I’m incredibly privileged in a lot of ways, but my spirituality feels like poverty to a certain extent. At the moment, it feels like I’m re-sensitising to the world because for quite a while, I felt dead to the issues that we face – climate change, for example. Like numb. They were rational things, so I was like, ‘that’s really fucked up,’ but it was only in my head, I couldn’t feel it.
Now I think what spirituality means to me is becoming more sensitised and I’m increasingly becoming affected by things that are happening in the world that used to only affect me in my brain. At the moment, I’m moved to tears most days, which is very different from how the last three years have been. My hope is to get thin skin. If I can shed a few layers of thick skin, I’ll be able to act from a place of ‘I feel this needs to be done, so I’m going to do it.’
With society as it is, there’s so much to numb us from every angle. Whatever particular thing that will soothe you or distract you, there’s a million options being advertised for. Sensitivity is key. Some days, I feel like I’m on a path to spiritual fulfilment and like I have a spiritual purpose here, and I want to live that out into the world and help. And other days, I just feel afraid and bewildered and confused by why there’s so much terrible stuff in existence. It’s strange.