Currently, I am in Bangkok, my home, where I live with my family. Due to the pandemic, work is relatively slow, but looking on the brighter side, this time has also taught me a lot personally as well as professionally. I have utilized the time channelling my thoughts in the direction I want to go. It has helped me analyze where I stand now and where I desire to be in the future.

I feel truly blessed to be loved by my fans and supporters. However, the Gena that they have witnessed is not truly who I am – all my past albums have been designed by the company I have been associated with, so those albums were their interpretation of me and not who I truly am or what I truly stand for.
I can’t wait to show the world the real me, my beliefs, my ideology, my aesthetic and everything I stand for as a musician. Stay tuned. Although without those challenges, I wouldn’t have found who I truly am today.

My father, who was a DJ, would play a lot of old songs back in the day. Growing up, I have enjoyed and practised old songs that he would play – I started imitating him and that’s how my passion for music and old songs grew. One day after school, I went to a singing class with my cousin and started learning more about music. My parents generally were busy and many times they would be late to pick me up from the singing class, and so I used to wait outside for ages, but I’d sing alone while waiting for them.
As time flew by, one day I started recording my own songs with the help of an app called Socialcam. It was overwhelming to see myself gain so many followers, and eventually I got spotted by MBO, and that’s how I entered the world of music. At that time, the Thai music industry was highly influenced by Korean music and style. It was a little uncomfortable for me but I had to start from somewhere and I did as water does, I went with the flow. I worked extremely hard, and slowly I found myself. I have much more to offer and I’ve been waiting for the right time from the universe.

As humans we are not always one emotion, we are moody and made of various emotions, and we all feel them differently. I didn’t feel those emotions in the songs you mentioned as it was my agency who wanted me to feel them because that’s what they thought could sell. It was right for me to sing whatever they wanted, to be honest, as it was needed for the album to sell better and be appreciated by the fans. It was not something I truly saw myself in, I have so much more to offer and share with the world – I am currently working on it. I will sing and express my own emotions and philosophy and beliefs to the world.

Though it always feels good to be appreciated and liked, the truth is that all these music videos you are talking about have been due to my agency’s taste and choice. The videos were designed by them, and in this process, I at least realized that I am not what those videos have portrayed me as. Due to the contract and commitments, I couldn’t do anything apart from self-reflection.
As soon as I am over with that chapter, I am going to show the world the real me – what I can create, what I’m capable of, my own aesthetic, rather than being influenced by someone else’s ideas. No matter if it sells or not, I at least will be satisfied. I would love to show the world who truly I am with my future music.

Fashion is the reflection of your self and your personality, it is like showing the inside on the outside. In my previous videos, I was dragged into following trends and luxury fashion brands. I used to buy into it, but then trends change so fast, and somehow, those clothes became boring to me. Finally, I decided that rather than following trends, I would make my own. Now I pick up stuff from local emerging designers and local shops and just mix and match. For me, fashion is how you want the world to see you.

I am from a country that celebrates its culture and I absolutely love that about my home, but there is something about New York that mesmerizes me every time I am there. I love the diversity! NYC is the place that welcomes people of all cultures, and I feel totally welcomed there. It’s the city where people come with a dream, and I am one of them. It’s very overwhelming to see and feel that – I am in love with the city.
I am not a very outdoors or party animal kind of person, but I make sure not to miss any music event or festival. I love to go and stand and scream in public and watch those flashing lights, those huge speakers, and the singer arriving on stage. I feel I am almost there, I want to be one of them. That’s where I thrive, and my dreams become almost like reality, even while watching someone else. At the end of the performance, we all are one – it’s giving me goosebumps thinking about it. Apart from this, my favourite place is Central Park, where I just go with my book and pen, lay in the grass on summer days and I write or sing.

Well, music is my biggest passion. In fact, I see myself as more like music than human! However, I also have an interest in creative direction, which I already had a go at for my previous video by Polar, where I got the freedom to work as an art director. I would love to do more of this for upcoming artists and for my own videos too. Apart from art direction, I wish to have my own weed farm, create my own label and make people happy!

Hip-hop is the genre I always related to the most. I was happy when I got the opportunity to collaborate with a rap artist – rap and hip-hop songs are always delivered from true stories and actual emotions, and that’s what I love the most about them. My collaboration song was all about people’s dreams and achievements. I personally want to create more songs with a marriage between hip-hop and rap, you will see me zone into this on my album.

In Thailand, I am currently a big fish in a small pond – my dream is to come out of my comfort zone and be a fish in the ocean where nobody knows me. It will make me feel more grounded and almost reborn, I’m sure with a few complications along the way. I want to work passionately with a bigger level of opportunity. I know it won’t be a fairytale, but it will at least be my path. I will feel honoured about that. It doesn’t matter how far I go, but I don’t want to live going at one pace, I am totally ready to dive in.
I want to start all over again and make people meet the real Gena Desouza! Not only Gena D. We can’t choose how we start our lives but we can always decide how we want them to end. My beliefs, my life, my style, my passion. I am determined to work hard and want to constantly evolve into a better version of myself through my music – stay tuned world.