What struck me during these experiences was the noticeable absence of women on the dancefloor and, particularly, the absence of anyone who resembled me at the DJ decks. This ignited a spark within me to become a catalyst for change. With an initial foray into DJing using Pioneer CDJ 350s, I embarked on a journey, navigating the intricacies of mixing and music selection and a pivotal moment arrived when I secured a position at Radar Radio, a now-defunct radio station which opened my eyes to the vast potential within the music industry. It laid the groundwork for me to envision a full-time career in this industry.
Interestingly, despite my long relationship with DJing, I hadn't delved deeply into music production until the onset of lockdown. The unexpected pause granted me the time and space to explore this facet of creativity and it was during this period that I dedicated myself to honing my skills in music production.
In the beginning of 2023, as I embarked on my musical venture under my new solo moniker SICARIA, I found myself repeatedly drawing the Cindy Sherman card during personal readings concerning the future of my musical career, which felt like an uncanny alignment of spiritual forces. And so it became obvious that integrating Cindy Sherman's work into my sonic palette was a sign from the universe; a pivotal element in the evolution of my creative expression.
It also probably helps that her aesthetic is a great visual representation of the eerie and enigmatic tones present in my music production!
Yet, when it comes to the nitty-gritty of using AI to create a live mix or curate a playlist, I'm not entirely convinced they've mastered the emotional intelligence that’s crucial in creating a compelling mix or a deeply resonant playlist. I feel like AI relies heavily on crunching data in big batches, and sometimes, its way of tagging or categorising music can miss the mark big time: it often lacks the nuanced understanding required to represent the intricate essence of a song. Let's take my EP, for instance. Across all these streaming platforms, every track got slapped with the dubstep label. But if you give it a spin, you'll realise not every tune fits snugly into that one-size-fits-all category. It's like trying to cram a square peg into a round hole, and some of my tunes might crop up in classical dubstep playlists or mixes and leave the listener feeling a little confused.
So here's to hoping us humans get to keep our gigs for the long haul! As much as AI has its perks, there's something about the human touch and understanding that adds that special sauce to the music experience.
Back in the day, my gaming preferences leaned heavily towards action-adventure, RPGs, and first-person shooters. Playstation was my go-to console (I’ll thank my brother for that) and there were a few standout games that left a mark on me – the entire Call of Duty series, Uncharted and Assassin’s Creed, just to scratch the surface.
There's this one game, Heavy Rain, that etched itself into my memory. It was like stepping into a cinematic universe, and oddly enough, looking back, I can definitely see my track Tout De Sweet seamlessly fitting into the sonic landscape of that game. The atmospheric vibes and storytelling in Heavy Rain seem to resonate with the essence of that particular piece. I mean I’ve even got heavy rain and thunderstorm samples in that track!
That's where my surroundings come into play. I've learned to lean on my environment to ground myself, to provide that context and direction. It's like the anchor that helps me sift through the whirlwind of ideas and focus on what needs attention. So, yeah, it's that delicate dance between the world of my imagination and the reality check that my surroundings offer. They both play a crucial role in shaping my creative process, balancing the boundless ideas with the practicality needed to bring them to life.
On one hand, it mirrors my affinity for a genre that often gets labelled as outdated or unconventional. I guess you could say I'm a bit of a freak in that sense, revelling in something that doesn't fit the current mould or isn’t really in line with current dance music trends.
But there's another layer to it. I'm also a bit of a freak in the industry landscape itself: being a North African woman making waves and carving out my space in a scene predominantly dominated by white men - that's its own kind of edge. So yes, Freak 2 Freak embodies this amalgamation of my musical tastes and my place in this vibrant, sometimes challenging, dance music universe. It's a little slice of who I am and the journey I've carved out for myself.
Figuring out my sound has been a bit of a puzzle. It's not like there's this singular thing I resonate with. I'm all about embracing various sounds across the 140BPM spectrum. It's like my musical soul doesn't limit itself to one box, and that's been both exciting and a touch challenging. Honestly, it's a bit of a journey to find that perfect sonic representation of my nature as I’m trying to pinpoint what truly encapsulates both my musical palette and my personality. It’s funny because it’s probably making me come across as a little uncertain or lacking self-assurance, but I think a chunk of that stems from spending seven years operating as a duo. Going solo has been this whole reawakening, almost like hitting the reset button on self-discovery. It's like starting from scratch, piecing together my new musical identity.
When you read up on gnawa, the descriptions often paint it as this meditative, serious, even intense genre. But let me tell you, the reality is far from that picture. Gnawa, in its essence, is actually quite the opposite. It's this vibrant, uplifting genre that's a staple at pretty much every type of Moroccan celebration, especially weddings and it’s pretty custom to have a gnawa band perform at your wedding.
So while gnawa might be portrayed as this deep, introspective sound, my experience with it has been all about joy, fun, and setting the tone for some unforgettable moments in my life. It's this wonderful mix of tradition and celebration that's been ingrained in me since childhood.
But if we’re talking ultimate dreams? I’d love to work with some of my favourite UK or US vocalists in the next few years - fingers crossed I can manifest that into my journey.
You can expect a whirlwind of energetic dubstep and other high-octane, fun sounds, all clocking in around that lively 140 BPM mark. I’ve got my own tunes in there and I've got a few curveball tracks up my sleeve, fresh ones that I haven’t road-tested yet that might just slide seamlessly into the vibe of this audience. I guess you’ll have to come down and witness it yourself.






